| | Silence reigns again,
It's the only day you live,
You cried and sweated all your dreams out,
You can never die.
You cannot be silent again,
Just an excuse to be yourself again,
Another cause to be me again,
Another role we can never play again.
Hands clasped under this veil,
You looked so beautiful in my nightmares,
Imagining us around the bend,
Behind your voice, my body lies.
Catch these words I throw at you,
They all fall around you like rocks,
Getting hurt was all you did,
Learning to be lonely again.
Walking towards me, smiling,
Nervous, anxious and scared,
Said something stupid, you bought it,
I never let go, until you took it back.
Your smile haunts my love,
That skin makes me shiver at night,
Those eyes help me bleed,
But you always saved me.
Loving you is so easy,
Your smell makes me smile,
Words never hurt me,
Until I knew they could break my heart.
I feel every breath you take,
None of them are for me,
You always seemed to know,
What you want, but never what you need.
Drink this again, until I am done,
You can never tell me who this is for,
What has this done to me,
To us.
Crying for help now,
Can't reach you,
Hoping to find a way to heaven,
Following your footsteps.
Eating on these fears, day and night,
Making stories til, I give up,
Waiting for you to feed me with your presence,
The wait, that never ends.
The blood til flows like it did in you,
Your temperature still rises like it used to,
Another year goes by you,
While another person is beside you.
Born on this day,
Beautiful and confident,
Just like a million sunrises exploding in your mind,
I woke up today feeling without you.
Wake up in the morning,
Taste the air and him,
Walk around your dreams without me,
Hope you trip, so I break your fall.
This disease and disaster started,
Another rainbow on your dress,
The kings and queens drowned,
In our fears and love.
Spell that word again,
Make me lose again,
Just another damn word from your mouth,
Will make me feel you again.
Pretend your life is true,
Have another kiss, its true,
Just cuddle him again, its true,
But are you?
Is love everything you want it to be?
Bleeding for me, made you cry,
Staying up for me, made you tired,
Being with me made you sad.
Your eyes still shining like moon on that night,
Pretend to hug me, I will die,
Injecting myself with you,
I will never give you back your heart.
Everyday has gone by,
You still linger on in my skin,
I can breathe with you Claudii,
I can be you.
It's your day and year,
So special to be you,
So special to be smiling,
So special, that your with him.
Every Hope and every Desire,
Make me feel myself again,
Your hands will never find me again,
You stopped trying, when you killed yourself.
Another year, another boy,
Growing old is getting old,
Ask me for anything,
Except to leave you alone.
6 minutes til you kiss him,
6 minutes til I bleed it all away,
Another 6 minutes, for this to end,
My 6 minutes will last forever.
Have I triggered something inside you,
Should I boil this hate before I taste it?
May I look into your eyes for the truth?
Can I taste your soul, for the last time?
Happy Birthday Claudii.
Touched,
Kissed,
Loved,
Claudia's,
Nesh
I love you now and will do forever.
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